All In, All New

The temptaion is strong to go back and wipe out all of my previous posts. That life is gone and a new life has begun. I no longer live in the past (most of the time) and I can't live in the future as that technology does not yet exist. So I am keeping my feet as firmly in the present as I possibly can. When I started "I just want to be happy" I had visions of a blog much like my friend Jetta's weight loss blog- something that would keep me accountable to do the work and make changes in my life. I did none of those things- it quickly became a place to write about my feelings, moan and complain about the troubles I face and dare I say, make passive aggressive statements towards people who hurt me. Sheesh! My life is new now. I still "want to be happy" but I am no longer searching for happiness, I am creating it. Maybe that is not even true....I am recognizing blessings in my life and being thankful to God for them, I am learning and all in all I am happier...thats a good start. I used to think I was "unlucky" "cursed" "unloved". Now I see myself as "blessed" and "persued". I am happy that I have a new life focus and that I have a new shot at transformation in my life. HFH

Tough year

This has been a really tough year. I have made some difficult choices I have been right on some and wrong on others. Too bad you can't turn back time. I would do nearly everything differently. I hope this pain subsides someday.