Love for me has always been an easy and powerful emotion. I do not know why I was created this way, but it is a natural gift I have always possessed. The ability to love freely and fiercely. Some people have been repelled by it, others drawn to it. It has brought me pain and joy, troubles and triumph. As we all have, I have suffered many hurts in life, but my ability to love had never been decreased. I have loved people who it makes no sense for me to love, but love is what I do. My heart holds many types of love for many different people. Some who I know intimately and deeply some who barely passed into and out of my life. Love is the core of who I am.
I love a person deeply- drawn to him immediately. Not love at first sight- not Hollywood love. When I discovered that I loved him it was so apparent that I really didn't care if we were ever meant to be in a romantic situation- okay not entirely true- I wanted him to be my love, be my man. However, I decided right away that even if I was never to receive romantic love from him I wanted him in my life, no matter what. In the time that I have loved him it has been many different kinds of love. A tapestry woven of many shades, colors, and textures. For all of the love I have given and experienced in my life- this love is different.Not better or worse, but its own. I am not saying this is my fairy tale ending and I am riding off into the sunset. I am not saying we rival Romeo and Juliet or any character that may come to mind when you think of love between two people. This is something real and complex.
I don't know what the future holds. I think people are too determined to make everything permanent. Nothing is permanent- why we as people, and myself specifically, fight so hard against the temporary, I don't comprehend. Everything is temporary just to varying degrees.
This love has changed who I am and how I view life in general. Regardless of what happens in life- this love has touched me and changed me. I am glad for that. Glad I took risks to develop this love. I am grateful I have received this love in return.
I have no regret in this. No matter what happens, your love has made a difference for me and you will always be forever on my heart. Thanks for opening yourself up to me. Thank you for returning my love. As the saying goes, to the world you may be one person, but to this one person you truly mean the world. <3
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